If Heaven Had Email
Matt, if heaven had email, I would email you each morning. As I sit with my coffee, where you and I once sat, you are, as always, on my mind. I want to talk to you; to tell you what's happening; to listen to you. Mornings were ours. The last of our mornings were not too good. I fussed at you; berated you about using drugs. "Please stop," I would say. Now I know you couldn't; not on your own.
Oh, how I wish I could look into your eyes again; to hug you again (and more often), telling you how very much I loved you. It's too late...you're gone.
If heaven had email, I would tell you how very sorry I am -- sorry that I didn't understand addiction; sorry I didn't help you more.
Matt, your Dad is near death. I have told him when it's time, you will come after him. He's very tired; very sick. I will not try to hold him back. He longs to see you too.
If heaven had email, I would tell you..."it's okay; you can come get your "Dude," as you called him.
You are forever dear in my heart...I will always keep you there.
I love you,
mom
posted by Aileen Bennett @ 5:36 AM
1 Comments:
oh yeah only if heaven had one wouldn't that be great!!!! I dont know what you are going through whatsoever oh I have lost my mother father and my sister of whom i loved so much but I cant imagine losing my child. I knew Matt and to me he was a friend even with the problems he had with the pills he still was a kind soul, And Im glad to have got to know him.
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